I'm 25 years old. Now I know that I am not old, but each year that passes by I get a little more tense about this baby thing. Not because I feel I will be too old to have kids, but that I will be too old when they move out!! Don't laugh! I always dreamed of having kids young so that by the time they are off to college, I would only be in my early 40's. That would be awesome! I mean there are some women who are only just starting their families at 40!
I know that this is all very silly, but I really do hate that the months pass by and that even if I get pregnant now and everything went as planned (I want to have 3 kids... well right now I want three... ask me again after the first!), I will be 30 by the time I have my last. That means I will be almost 50 before they leave the house! Not bad, but still 40 would be much better!
So, most of you are probably laughing at me right now, and rightly so! I'm laughing at the stupidity of it to! But come on... wouldn't you love to be young(er) when the kids left the nest?
Shannon :)
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A place where I can share my thoughts and feelings on infertility, adoption and loss and all of its struggles and joys. As well as a place where I can find support and prayers from my family and friends.
About Me
- Shannon
- Whitehorse, Yukon, Canada
Our Journey So Far...
Jeff and I met in 1999 at Bible College in Winnipeg. We were married there in April 2002. We didn't start trying to have a baby until 2004. After a couple years of trying on our own we went to our Family Doctor to see what our problem was. After much testing it was discovered that we were dealing with male factor infertility. In November 2007 we were told we had a 1% chance of conceiving on our own and that IVF would be our only solution. We weren't able to afford IVF at the time and so did one round of IUI in April 2009 which was not successful. In the midst of this we decided that Adoption was something God was calling us to and we began looking into what that would be like. in July 2009 we met for the first time with our social worker and began our homestudy to be approved for adoption through social services. In May 2010 we decided we would pursue an adoption of a little boy in Zimbabwe. This eventually fell through due to complications with immigration. While this was going on however we were also hopeful about adopting another little boy from Alberta. In August 2010 we received word that we had been chosen as the adoptive parents. We were ecstatic! In September however, a couple weeks before we were to get him the adoption fell through leaving us heartbroken. Because of this adoption heartbreak, in February 2011 we decided we would pursue IVF again. In June 2012 we traveled to Vancouver for our first (and probably last) IVF treatment. We were able to transfer two day 3 embryos and freeze five day 5 blastocysts. On June 26th for the first time in 8 years of TTC I saw my first positive pregnancy test! We were so happy! Unfortunately a couple weeks later on July 12th we miscarried our precious little ones whom we named Esme (meaning Loved) and Zane (meaning God is Gracious). We were heartbroken but thankful that God saw fit to bless us with their lives even for a few short weeks. In October 2012 we traveled to Vancouver again for a FET. We transferred one sweet little Blast and were blessed to find out we had conceived again. All too soon though little Gabriel (meaning God is my Strength) went to be with Jesus and his Brothers and Sisters on November 15th. We miss our children and look forward to the day that we are reunited with them in Heaven.
And the journey continues...
And the journey continues...
List Of Abbreviations
BFP - Big Fat Positive
BFN - Big Fat Negative
TTC - Trying To Concieve
AF - Aunt Flow (aka Period)
DPO - Days Past Ovulation
BD - Baby Dancing (aka Sex)
POAS - Pee On A Stick (Pregnancy or ovulation testing)
2WW - 2 Week Wait (From ovulation to expected period)
CD - Cycle Day
LP - Luteal Phase (time between ovulation and period)
LPD - Luteal Phase Defect
DH - Dear husband
SA - Semen Analysis
IVF - In Vitro Fertilization
FET - Frozen Embryo Transfer
OHSS - Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome
HPT - Home Pregnancy Test
BFN - Big Fat Negative
TTC - Trying To Concieve
AF - Aunt Flow (aka Period)
DPO - Days Past Ovulation
BD - Baby Dancing (aka Sex)
POAS - Pee On A Stick (Pregnancy or ovulation testing)
2WW - 2 Week Wait (From ovulation to expected period)
CD - Cycle Day
LP - Luteal Phase (time between ovulation and period)
LPD - Luteal Phase Defect
DH - Dear husband
SA - Semen Analysis
IVF - In Vitro Fertilization
FET - Frozen Embryo Transfer
OHSS - Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome
HPT - Home Pregnancy Test
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2 comments:
Hey! I am not too sure. Now that I have Megan and it is still VERY possible that she will be the only one, I want to have her around forever. I am sure she will be MORE ready to leave the house then I will be to let her go. I am already thinking about life without her in the house and I always ask Mike what we would do and he simply says "Enjoy eachother" HA! I am sure we will enjoy eachother...as long as we are planning trips to see Meg and the grandchild(ren)! Don't get me wrong Mike and I do enjoy eachother like crazy sometimes literally! **WINK**...Meg just adds another element. God knows the perfect time line so no worries. I can understand your thoughts tho...I thought the same way but now it has changed. Love you!!!
That is mine and Christina's plan. We never had the opportunity to date much, so we figure we'll get to it when the kids leave. I do agree with the mailman's wife, that you never really want them to leave, but I think those views may change around the teenage years :)
~2q
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