We have been strangely at peace since we were last at the doctors. I have my moments when I feel like crying, but really that's no different then the past 4 years. Christmas will be hard. Christmas sucks without kids. I can't imagine waking up every Christmas morning to an empty house. What a bore. Anyways, Christmas is hard because it reminds me that the year before I thought that by now for SURE I would have a baby or be pregnant. Its a "great" reminder of just how long it has been since we started TTC. :(
I think the best thing that has happened to keep my mind off babies is the dog. Tillsley has been such a blessing for me. Even though I get so frustrated at times, it is all worth it. And it really has taught me a lot about parenting. He's up all night (he's been sick with diarrhea), I have to "puppy" proof my home (yesterday he got into the cupboard below the sink and ate a Magic Eraser), I have been giving him medicine (for the diarrhea... he doesn't like it!), taking him to the vet (I stepped on him... oops!) and the best part is that because he is soooo small I can carry him around with me everywhere and everyone stops to say hello and pet him! (He really is a great ministry tool) I bring him to the office regularly because our Family Services volunteer owns a chihuahua puppy too, from the same breeder. So Tillsley and Ringo play lots together.
Below is a short clip of Tillsley. The quality isn't great because it was taken on my camera.
Well, I guess that is it. The new year will probably bring with it a little more baby news. Until then, have a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year! God Bless!
Shannon
