(Two post in one day!! Not bad!)
So I've started taking my crazy pills again! We shall see if they will make me as nuts as I was last month. Maybe I really am insane and I am just using the clomid as an excuse! Who knows! lol!
We are going to be heading to Lloydminster to see our friends on Wednesday! I can't wait. I really need a vacation and I really want to see them! So you may not hear from me for a while.
I'm going to be a little mean though and ask that you pray for us, but I'm not going to tell you why... I'm sorry! I hate when people do that to me! But we have some decisions to make and I want to be sure that we follow God's plan. Please pray for clarity for us and peace once the decision is made.
Thank you everyone... I love you all!
Shannon
Monday, April 30, 2007
Happy Anniversary To Us!
It is our 5 year anniversary today! YAH! I can't believe it has been 5 years! Time flies by doesn't it? Jeff looks so young!
Well here's to you my love! We've been through a lot, and we are stronger for it. I couldn't imagine this life without you. I love you more today then you will ever know!
With all my Love!
Shannon
Thursday, April 26, 2007
What can I say today?
I guess mostly that I am one messed up woman! I go from being so content with my life, to being so pissed off I just want to scream. Having all those emotions are not fun. One minute I am crying, the next I'm screaming, and then all of a sudden I'm okay. Sometimes I feel like I am losing my mind!
I think I am going to try and put together a scrap book of all my blessings in life. That way whenever I am feeling really down, when I am so frustrated at God, I can look at it and remember just how blessed I really am. Now I just have to get off my butt and do it! I'm a horrible procrastinator!
Anyways, that's it for today. Sorry the posts aren't as often as they use to be. I just can't seem to focus much these last few months.
Shannon
I think I am going to try and put together a scrap book of all my blessings in life. That way whenever I am feeling really down, when I am so frustrated at God, I can look at it and remember just how blessed I really am. Now I just have to get off my butt and do it! I'm a horrible procrastinator!
Anyways, that's it for today. Sorry the posts aren't as often as they use to be. I just can't seem to focus much these last few months.
Shannon
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Well...
AF came this morning... actually last night a little, but I waited until this morning to be sure. So there goes my chance for this month. You know, I have been through this roller coaster 38 (wish I could swear right here) times!! And to tell you the truth I'm getting very sick of it. I'm not really sad this month, more angry right now. It just isn't fair that so many people can just look at a guy and get pregnant and we have to go through all this. I don't know. It's so hard. And do you want to know the hardest part? Having to tell Jeff that this isn't the month. Having to see his face as I tell him. I hate it.
I think I'm going to focus a little more in these coming months on getting healthy. Jeff and I have stopped drinking coke so maybe that is the boost we need to start losing weight. Who knows, I'm just so FRUSTRATED right now.
Well, the day still goes on whether I want it to or not and I've got a busy one.
Shannon
I think I'm going to focus a little more in these coming months on getting healthy. Jeff and I have stopped drinking coke so maybe that is the boost we need to start losing weight. Who knows, I'm just so FRUSTRATED right now.
Well, the day still goes on whether I want it to or not and I've got a busy one.
Shannon
Sunday, April 22, 2007
urgggg...
So while I was preaching today I started getting cramps. I was so mad. I mean of all places!! Anyways, I was trying to keep my mind on my sermon and not on whether AF was here early. I made it through the service and actually waited until I was home to see if she had come. But she wasn't there... which is kind of nice. But I don't know what all this cramping is about. I really feel like she is coming. I've been told by a lot of people that when you are pregnant you feel like AF is coming, so maybe I am. I really doubt it though. I don't feel pregnant at all.
I am really hoping that even if AF is coming that it can hold off for a while yet. Today is the day that I would normally start but since taking clomid my cycles are longer. So we shall see what these next couple weeks will bring. Lets hope and pray for a BFP though!
Shannon
I am really hoping that even if AF is coming that it can hold off for a while yet. Today is the day that I would normally start but since taking clomid my cycles are longer. So we shall see what these next couple weeks will bring. Lets hope and pray for a BFP though!
Shannon
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Nothing to do with infertility....
...but they are my substitute babies! I just had to share them with you... enjoy!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
"The Infertility Companion"
So the above mentioned title belongs to a book I am in the process of reading. It is a christian book on infertility and it has been great so far. I was surprised to see such a thing when I went to the christian book store on Tuesday. It was written by a christian lady who struggled with infertility her whole life (she never did have kids) and her doctor, who happens to be a christian man. So you get two perspectives which is great.
I will probably be sharing several excerpts from this book in the next few days or weeks, but I came across this today and I wanted to share it with you.
"Is there a scientific link between fertility and prayer? It would appear so. Researchers in one study discovered that women at an IVF clinic had higher pregnancy rates when, unknown to the patients, total strangers prayed for their success. In the study, researchers found that of the 199 women involved, those who were prayed for became pregnant twice as often as those who were not the focus of prayer. The researchers said they initially hesitated to report their findings but ultimately decided the information was too significant to suppress. None of the patients knew about the study nor did the medical staff caring for them.
While the data is too preliminary for us to be dogmatic, it certainly supports asking your friends, family, and church members to pray for you. And, of course, continue to pray for yourself. It not only deepens your relationship with God; it has the added benefit of improving your brain health and function."
Keep praying everyone!
Shannon
I will probably be sharing several excerpts from this book in the next few days or weeks, but I came across this today and I wanted to share it with you.
"Is there a scientific link between fertility and prayer? It would appear so. Researchers in one study discovered that women at an IVF clinic had higher pregnancy rates when, unknown to the patients, total strangers prayed for their success. In the study, researchers found that of the 199 women involved, those who were prayed for became pregnant twice as often as those who were not the focus of prayer. The researchers said they initially hesitated to report their findings but ultimately decided the information was too significant to suppress. None of the patients knew about the study nor did the medical staff caring for them.
While the data is too preliminary for us to be dogmatic, it certainly supports asking your friends, family, and church members to pray for you. And, of course, continue to pray for yourself. It not only deepens your relationship with God; it has the added benefit of improving your brain health and function."
Keep praying everyone!
Shannon
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Hot Flashes? You've got to be kidding me!
I will never make fun of a women having hot flashes again. It sucks... big time! One minute I am perfectly fine, then all of a sudden I am burning up! It feels like I have a furnace inside me! And it comes at the strangest times and places. I hate when it happens in public, because I feel like I go all red and I have to start waving something on my face just to breath! Its really horrible. I really thought that I was going to be one of the few who had no side effects of Clomid... guess not!
Just so you all know, I have now officially ovulated, so I am into the 2 Week Wait (2ww). This is the worst time of the month. Now is when your mind runs off with every little twinge, cramp, or nausea that you feel.
I guess that's it for now. Have a great day everyone!
Shannon
Just so you all know, I have now officially ovulated, so I am into the 2 Week Wait (2ww). This is the worst time of the month. Now is when your mind runs off with every little twinge, cramp, or nausea that you feel.
I guess that's it for now. Have a great day everyone!
Shannon
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
The Hormones are RAGING!!
Wow, I really hope that it is the clomid that is making me this cranky and emotional. I've gone from feeling like screaming to feeling like crying in just minutes! Let's start with the anger... my poor husband. All he has to do is look at me the wrong way and I want to flip! So far I've been able to keep most of it to myself... but a few times, boy has he gotten it! We were watching a movie the other night and I just flipped... for no reason. I keep having to bite my tongue. At least he knows that its not him so he kind of just rolls with it.
Second... I am so sad. It's hard to explain, but every so often I just feel like my heart is breaking. Literally breaking. I can't breath and I just feel like sobbing... not just tears... but a full out sob. Every time I see a baby I have to hold back. We were at Cost-Co yesterday and just seeing all these children and babies... man It was hard not to break down. Its very odd for me. I usually only get like this once AF comes because I realise I'm not pregnant. When I'm in the middle of my cycle I'm usually excited... cause this could be the month.
Its got to be the clomid.... right? I hope I'm not losing my mind!
Shannon
Second... I am so sad. It's hard to explain, but every so often I just feel like my heart is breaking. Literally breaking. I can't breath and I just feel like sobbing... not just tears... but a full out sob. Every time I see a baby I have to hold back. We were at Cost-Co yesterday and just seeing all these children and babies... man It was hard not to break down. Its very odd for me. I usually only get like this once AF comes because I realise I'm not pregnant. When I'm in the middle of my cycle I'm usually excited... cause this could be the month.
Its got to be the clomid.... right? I hope I'm not losing my mind!
Shannon
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Friday, April 6, 2007
Good Friday
The Good Friday Story
27Then the governor's soldiers took Jesus into the Praetorium and gathered the whole company of soldiers around him. 28They stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, 29and then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on his head. They put a staff in his right hand and knelt in front of him and mocked him. "Hail, king of the Jews!" they said. 30They spit on him, and took the staff and struck him on the head again and again. 31After they had mocked him, they took off the robe and put his own clothes on him. Then they led him away to crucify him.
32As they were going out, they met a man from Cyrene, named Simon, and they forced him to carry the cross. 33They came to a place called Golgotha (which means The Place of the Skull). 34There they offered Jesus wine to drink, mixed with gall; but after tasting it, he refused to drink it. 35When they had crucified him, they divided up his clothes by casting lots. 36And sitting down, they kept watch over him there. 37Above his head they placed the written charge against him: THIS IS JESUS, THE KING OF THE JEWS. 38Two robbers were crucified with him, one on his right and one on his left. 39Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads 40and saying, "You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, save yourself! Come down from the cross, if you are the Son of God!"
41In the same way the chief priests, the teachers of the law and the elders mocked him. 42"He saved others," they said, "but he can't save himself! He's the King of Israel! Let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him. 43He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, 'I am the Son of God.' " 44In the same way the robbers who were crucified with him also heaped insults on him.
45From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. 46About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"—which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
47When some of those standing there heard this, they said, "He's calling Elijah."
48Immediately one of them ran and got a sponge. He filled it with wine vinegar, put it on a stick, and offered it to Jesus to drink. 49The rest said, "Now leave him alone. Let's see if Elijah comes to save him."
50And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.
51At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split. 52The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. 53They came out of the tombs, and after Jesus' resurrection they went into the holy city and appeared to many people.
54When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, "Surely he was the Son of God!"
55Many women were there, watching from a distance. They had followed Jesus from Galilee to care for his needs. 56Among them were Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James and Joses, and the mother of Zebedee's sons.
57As evening approached, there came a rich man from Arimathea, named Joseph, who had himself become a disciple of Jesus. 58Going to Pilate, he asked for Jesus' body, and Pilate ordered that it be given to him. 59Joseph took the body, wrapped it in a clean linen cloth, 60and placed it in his own new tomb that he had cut out of the rock. He rolled a big stone in front of the entrance to the tomb and went away. 61Mary Magdalene and the other Mary were sitting there opposite the tomb.
It is days like this that I remember just how blessed I am. To have a King that gave his life for me... what more could I ever want? I pray you all take a chance today to thank the Lord for the blessings in your life and for the greatest gift ever... Salvation.
27Then the governor's soldiers took Jesus into the Praetorium and gathered the whole company of soldiers around him. 28They stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, 29and then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on his head. They put a staff in his right hand and knelt in front of him and mocked him. "Hail, king of the Jews!" they said. 30They spit on him, and took the staff and struck him on the head again and again. 31After they had mocked him, they took off the robe and put his own clothes on him. Then they led him away to crucify him.
32As they were going out, they met a man from Cyrene, named Simon, and they forced him to carry the cross. 33They came to a place called Golgotha (which means The Place of the Skull). 34There they offered Jesus wine to drink, mixed with gall; but after tasting it, he refused to drink it. 35When they had crucified him, they divided up his clothes by casting lots. 36And sitting down, they kept watch over him there. 37Above his head they placed the written charge against him: THIS IS JESUS, THE KING OF THE JEWS. 38Two robbers were crucified with him, one on his right and one on his left. 39Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads 40and saying, "You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, save yourself! Come down from the cross, if you are the Son of God!"
41In the same way the chief priests, the teachers of the law and the elders mocked him. 42"He saved others," they said, "but he can't save himself! He's the King of Israel! Let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him. 43He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, 'I am the Son of God.' " 44In the same way the robbers who were crucified with him also heaped insults on him.
45From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land. 46About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"—which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
47When some of those standing there heard this, they said, "He's calling Elijah."
48Immediately one of them ran and got a sponge. He filled it with wine vinegar, put it on a stick, and offered it to Jesus to drink. 49The rest said, "Now leave him alone. Let's see if Elijah comes to save him."
50And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.
51At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split. 52The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. 53They came out of the tombs, and after Jesus' resurrection they went into the holy city and appeared to many people.
54When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, "Surely he was the Son of God!"
55Many women were there, watching from a distance. They had followed Jesus from Galilee to care for his needs. 56Among them were Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James and Joses, and the mother of Zebedee's sons.
57As evening approached, there came a rich man from Arimathea, named Joseph, who had himself become a disciple of Jesus. 58Going to Pilate, he asked for Jesus' body, and Pilate ordered that it be given to him. 59Joseph took the body, wrapped it in a clean linen cloth, 60and placed it in his own new tomb that he had cut out of the rock. He rolled a big stone in front of the entrance to the tomb and went away. 61Mary Magdalene and the other Mary were sitting there opposite the tomb.
It is days like this that I remember just how blessed I am. To have a King that gave his life for me... what more could I ever want? I pray you all take a chance today to thank the Lord for the blessings in your life and for the greatest gift ever... Salvation.
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Music to my ears... well not quite
I received in the mail today a brand new cornet!! (its a trumpet like instrument for all you non-Salvation Army band people!) I'm so excited! We have wanted to start a small band here since we arrived and I haven't been able to find a cornet. But now through the Canadian Staff Band I was able to get a brand new one... for free! And its great... except its been a while since I played. Needless to say Jeff and I need some (okay... a lot of) practice!
In other news, I've finished my clomid for this month, so now I have to wait for ovulation. You know, I think God is trying to teach me patience! It is so hard having to always wait for something.
So that's about it for news right now! I really need a more exciting life!
Shannon
In other news, I've finished my clomid for this month, so now I have to wait for ovulation. You know, I think God is trying to teach me patience! It is so hard having to always wait for something.
So that's about it for news right now! I really need a more exciting life!
Shannon
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