Random Thoughts

It's 3:30 am and I'm wide awake.  For some reason I've been really bothered again about the little boy we were going to adopt.  I think it's because Christmas is here and I had dreamed about finally sharing Christmas with a child. 

It's funny how you judge time by holidays.  Every year I think to myself, "this will be the last Christmas we celebrate alone... for sure by next year we will have a child."  It's been almost 8 years... sigh.

I've also been thinking about the other little boy we were going to adopt from Zimbabwe.... I think that's been due to the snow.  Back when we were thinking he was going to be coming here I remember thinking about what it would be like for him to see snow and how cold he would be.  It would have been fun to see his face on the first day he got to play in it though. 

We haven't heard anything from Social Services about any potential children.  We had heard there was a little boy who might be available sometime before Christmas but so far nothing else has been said. 

I go on Monday to have blood taken to make sure things are still okay with me and that I'm ovulating.  I was a little worried, as the last couple months I hadn't detected ovulation, but this month I got a positive test.  So that made me feel a little better.  Once I have the test done I'll make a doctors appointment to get the results, as well as the results of Jeff's Semen Analysis.  I'm praying that his numbers have improved a little with the vitamins he's been taking.

Testing again...

We went to the doctor a couple days ago and had GREAT news!  Since we've been taking these vitamins and doing a few extra things to increase our chances of getting pregnant I thought it would be good for Jeff to have another semen analysis while we are in Calgary in January.  So we went to see our Doctor and asked him to get us an appointment.  Thankfully we found out we can do the test here in Whitehorse!  YAY!  Thats awesome because now we can have the test done a few times to get an accurant picture.  I will also be getting tests done (ones I've had done before) to make sure things are still okay with me.  As well, we found out that they do IUI's here and so if Jeff's count goes up we will probably do a few of those.  I can't believe that we are back to all this testing again! lol!  I thought those days were over!

Busy, Busy!

I guess it's time for another update...

The last few weeks have been really busy for us, especially with work. There is a lot going on and still lots to do. In a few short weeks we will also be heading into the Christmas season and while I enjoy it I'm not looking forward to the stress of finding enough volunteers to stand at the kettles.

This past weekend was also interesting. Until today I really thought I was pregnant. :o( I was 4 days late, had a ton of symptoms (and several I've never had before) and really thought this was our time. But of course that didn't work out. It's so disappointing, but on we go to another month of trying.

Jeff and I have been talking about how any day we may get a call saying that there is a child waiting for us. Ever since our little boy went to his new parents I keep thinking how exciting it must have been for them... from the first phone call to when he went to live with them was about 2 weeks! I can't imagine how exciting that would be! I hope our chance will happen sometime sooner rather than later.