New way of thinking

Jeff and I have decided to live our lives differently. For over three years we have been "waiting" for a baby. Every time we talk about anything in the future it includes children. If we want to do something (like take a trip) its "By the time we save we will have a baby and won't be able to go." We have put our lives on hold for this child that doesn't even exist. How sad is that?

So we decided that from now on we will live as if a child is not in our future. I mean who says that we will ever have children. Even with adoption we may never get chosen. I saw a show last night and a couple had waited 18 years on the adoption list. So no more!! From now on the future includes just Jeff and I. And if a child happens to come, great!

Now, even though we are thinking like this, we are still going to be TTC. I still plan on doing whatever I can to have a child, but with the thought that it may not work and if it doesn't, we will be okay. I have a great life. A husband that loves me, a roof over my head, some money in my pocket, and a list of blessings too long to mention. What more could I ask for? A child would just be the cherry on top... but I don't need the "cherry" to have a wonderful life. God has given me everything I NEED, and most of my wants. I need to be thankful for those things.

Anyways, continue to keep us in your prayers. I still find myself saying "When we have a baby we should...." As much as we have this "figured out" we need to actually apply it!

Shannon