No news yet...

We still haven't heard about our funding, and I'm not expecting to hear now until next month. The Doctor mentioned that they meet at the beginning of every month so if we made it to that meeting I would think we would have heard back by now. So, we have to wait a little longer before we know what our future holds.

On a good note one week from tomorrow we will be heading to Newfoundland for a three week vacation! I can't wait! We're going to take the first 5 days to travel up to L'Anse aux Meadows and then spend one week at mom and dad's cabin on the lake and a week in my home town. Should be fun!

I'm hoping that when we return there will be an envelope with good news sitting on my table! Even funding for $8,000 or so would be helpful. Well, I guess I just have to be patient.

You probably won't hear from me now until I get back... so have a great summer!

Shannon

What are you?

Are you an optimist or a pessimist?

I am definitely a pessimist! Last night I was talking with Jeff about our application and that I'm not feeling very confident that we are going to get funding. Jeff on the other hand thinks we will.

For as long as I remember I have always been a pessimist. Really, I think being a pessimist is the best way. Its a win, win situation! For example, I believe we aren't going to get funding. If we do get it I will be surprised and will be ecstatic. If we don't I won't be too disappointed because I wasn't thinking we would anyway. If I were an optimist and we didn't get funding I would be heartbroken.

So I got thinking about all that and I wonder if God made me a pessimist because he knew I would be struggling with infertility. I think it would be very hard to be an optimist while going through this journey. On those rare months when I am optimistic I have the most heartbreaking let down. It's not worth it I don't think. I would much rather prepare my self for the worst and hope for the best.

So how about you? Do you see the glass as half full or half empty?

Shannon