I'm sorry I've been absent for so long. I haven't been in the mood to write the last while... probably because I felt like I just said the same things over and over again! 8 years of that was kind of getting boring... but, I have a feeling the posts will be a little different now! ;)
So here's our journey to seeing two lines on a pregnancy test....
As I mentioned way back Jeff and I decided that we would go ahead with IVF. We had hoped for February but things didn't move as fast as we had hoped and so it ended up being June before we could do it. We went to the Genesis Fertility Clinic in Vancouver. They were AWESOME! And I'm not just saying that because we are pregnant... even if it was a negative outcome I would still be pleased. They were super friendly, knowledgeable and didn't make the whole process seem so clinical.
I started doing my injections May 31st. Everything came in powder form so I had to mix each vial with saline. Thankfully they could all be mixed in the same vial so I only needed to do one injection each day in the beginning. Here's the first load of medication I got... there was MUCH, MUCH more as I progressed!
On June 3rd we flew down to Vancouver, rented a car and headed to our friends condo. They have a guest suite there that we were able to rent for really cheap. We couldn't have done this whole thing without Noel and Julie. We went there thinking we would cook all our own meals since we didn't want to be a burden on them, but they ended up taking care of everything for us. This was an incredible blessing as I wasn't able to stand around much and spent most of my time sitting or lying down.
The next morning we went in for the first of many blood tests. At first I was slow to respond so they kept increasing my medications (ouch on a couple levels... one it meant more shots (my poor stomach looked like a minefield). Two, each vial cost $75 dollars... we were spending about $500 every couple days). Eventually I was taking a shot at 6:00am, 9:30am and 6:00pm. It made going out places like dinner or a movie a little difficult and I would end up bringing along all my medications with me. Our friends, Brenda and Rick came across from the Island to spend a couple days with us and while we were at IKEA I needed to take my meds, so we went to the "Baby Care Room" to do them. We thought it was quite appropriate! :)
On day 9 of stimming (the term for the stimulation phase) they did my first ultrasound. The Dr. wasn't overly pleased with how my follicles were looking... he said I had lots of really small ones and only a few that were the size they would like to see by then. They increased my meds again and he mentioned that he figured the little ones would take off in the next few days. Well he predicted right. Two days later I went back and I had 14 good size follicles and many smaller ones. We were really pleased to hear that 14 were almost mature... that would be a great number for the embryo retrieval. We went home from the appointment feeling very good.
The next day, June 11th, we went for our last ultrasound. It was a different doctor who did it and the moment she put the ultrasound wand in she was shocked! All my smaller follicles had grown overnight. However, she still counted about 15 really good size ones and we figured the smaller ones wouldn't be viable (wouldn't have a mature egg in them). She told us that we would be doing our retrieval in a couple days. They were concerned however that my estrodial levels (E2 levels) were really high. This meant that I was at risk of developing Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome a painful condition where fluids start leaking into your abdomen and cause a multitude of problems (like bloating, vomiting, diarrhea). It can be mild (just monitor it at home) to severe (where they hospitalize you and drain fluids through needles from your abdomen and lung cavity). Because of this the doctor decided to "trigger" (a shot that matures the eggs) me differently using a different drug, We hoped that this drug would work and I wouldn't develop OHSS.
On June 13th we went in for our egg retrieval. When we got to the clinic they put an IV in (after several tries!) and gave me some medication to relax me... I was already pretty relaxed so it didn't do anything! Jeff went to give his sample and sign all the paperwork making sure they had all the correct information. Then they took us into the procedure room. They gave me medication that they told me would make me feel like I had several glasses of wine... to which I replied I've never drank so I don't know what that feels like! lol! They couldn't believe that! So they gave me the lowest dose and said if I needed more they could give it to me. The room spun a little bit but I was able to carry a conversation with everyone while they retrieved the eggs. Jeff was able to be there with me so that was really nice.
Once again as they put the Ultrasound guided needle in they were shocked by how big my ovaries were and how many follicles there were. The doctor and the nurses were quite amazed. I told them that a couple days before I was walking with Jeff to Tim Horton's across from our hotel and could feel them jiggle as I walked! lol! They had no doubt about that! I think my ovaries went from the size of plums to the size of grapefruits! So, quite the increase! Anyways, the retrieval was not painful at all and the best part is that Jeff and I could watch them drain the follicles on the screen. She would poke the needle into the follicle and then suction out the fluid inside which contained the egg. On the screen you watch the black hole shrink down to nothing and then disappear! It's very neat!
The embryologist is right there in the next room collecting the fluid and looking for eggs. As they collected them they told us the numbers... 1 egg.... 8 eggs.... 20 eggs... and then that was where they stopped. I was so pleased with that number, thinking that was the total. Well, they cleaned me up and sent me out to the recovery area and a few minutes later I see the Doctor coming towards me. She says "you have made the embryologist very mad! They collected 40 EGGS! They're going to be here all night!!" lol! She laughed and said that they have never seen that many eggs collected at the clinic. We were in shock! I did not expect to get 40 eggs! I guess all of our little follicles had eggs in them after all!
Here we are after the retrieval... They gave us juice and a cookie! :)
The next day we got the call from the embryologist with our fertilization report. Of the 40 eggs collected, 34 were mature. Those 34 were fertilized using ICSI, a process where they inject a single sperm into each egg (hence the reason why they would be there all night! It's a long process!). Of those 34 mature eggs, 30 took and became embryos. We were in shock! 30 Embryos!! Considering we went into this process knowing that we would use every embryo we created we were a little panicked!! Obviously there would be no way we could use that many embryos! We prayed lots that day that God would give us peace about what we were doing. We knew that he was in control and we trusted that he would look out for us. We thought, if he's giving us this many then there is a purpose for that... maybe that is how many we need to get the size family he wants for us.
On day 3, June 16th, we got the call that we needed to come in for the transfer. We were shocked! We thought we would be called in for a Day 5 transfer. Day 5 transfers have a higher success rate since by that stage if an embryo has survived you know that they are strong. Considering that we had 30 embryos I was sure that we would make it to day 5. Unfortunately the 26 embryos that were left (4 had arrested over night) were all Grade C (fair) and only 12 were at the cell development they should have been by that day (6-8 cells). They decided it was better to do a day 3 transfer just in case none of them made it to day 5.
We got ready and headed down to the clinic a little nervous about having to a Day 3 but excited that we were at this point. I had to drink a litre of water an hour before my ultrasound and by the time I was brought into the procedure room I was in PAIN. Just sitting down was excruciating! The nurse asked me if I wanted to go release a little bit but I refused because I figured I would end up not being able to stop! lol! Because of my full bladder the transfer was the most painful part of the whole IVF journey. Also, because I was terrified of peeing on the doctor I was clenching... which made it impossible for them to get the catheter into my uterus! So, once they figured that out they made me relax and it all went well after that. They transferred TWO Grade C 8-cell embryos. Here's our future child(rens) first picture...
After the transfer we went back to our guest suite and I pretty much stayed in bed for the next 5 days until we flew home. We went out a couple times, but just for a few minutes and barely any walking. One, I wasn't really feeling up to it and two I wanted to make sure I gave my ovaries as much rest as possible. OHSS was still a big concern. I drank tons of water and Gatorade and tried to eat lots of protein... all things they say can help. Thankfully I didn't get any signs of OHSS which is quite the miracle considering how many Eggs I had.
On Day 6 we got the call about our remaining Embryos. Of the 26 that were still growing on Day 3, five were able to be frozen for future use! We were so thankful to God and amazed at how he works! When we first found out we had 30 Embryos we were so scared that we would have too many left. Hearing that we had 5 embryos frozen was just perfect!! That means that if every Embryo makes it (which is highly unlikely unfortunately) we would have at the most 7 children. Now, I know all you parents of 2 or 3 are laughing at that... but at least 7 is a "doable" number... not like 26 which would be humanly IMPOSSIBLE! If God so desires for each one to make it and we end up with 7 children then I also know that he will provide for us and give us the strength and patience needed. I believe wholeheartedly that He is is in control... we may get 7 children, 5 children, 3... and maybe even none out of all this. Either way I know now that we can and will use each embryo.
So I'm going to be mean and stop here for the time being. Hopefully in the next couple days I'll get a chance to write about how we found out we were pregnant and how we told family and friends. Plus I'll give you an update on how I'm feeling and start the first of my weekly "baby bump" pics. (unfortunately the only bump for the next while will have nothing to do with baby! lol!)
Until then... :)
2 comments:
Thank you Shannon. Love reading this and love you xo
Such an amazing journey! So glad to have been a part of that and many other amazing times in your life. God has truly blessed us with our friendship, which grew so close in our hardship and is now growing in your hardship. He wrought amazing things for us; He is doing the same for you. Praying for the ones who have come into your womb who have made you a Mother. Praying mostly that you will physically meet one day; but also thanking our Heavenly Father for allowing you that special moment of being a Mom. May you get each of the remaining moments that come with Motherhood/pregnancy as well. I know the love you have for both of those lives already.
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