Hmmm... I wonder if I was?

Sorry it's been a while since I've posted.  I'll give you a few updates!

Last month I really thought I was pregnant! :o(  I was 10 days late and had TONS of symptoms.  I took a test at about 7 days late and it was negative.  Usually when I take a test I ALWAYS (literally) end up getting my period within an hour afterwards... this time that didn't happen and so my hopes began to soar!  But then a few days later I began to spot and after not too long she came full force.  I have been wondering if I had an early miscarriage since my period seemed a little strange and early in this cycle (this month) I was still feeling kind of pregnant.  So much so that I thought I should take another test in the middle of this cycle just to make sure, but of course it came up negative as well.  Those symptoms and "feelings" have subsided now so I'm wondering if I was pregnant and now the hormones have evened out again?  Who knows... it's a mystery!

I'm looking forward to seeing my Gynecologist on June 1st.  I'm hoping that he will push to get us into the IVF program as soon as possible.  I really want to try it out and I'm praying hard that it will work and we will end up with a baby (or two!) in our arms in 2012. 

I'm also excited that I've finally decided to start an infertility support group here in Whitehorse!  I've been saying for years that I was going to do this and I've always put it off.  I think I always believed (hoped) that I would end up getting pregnant "soon" and so didn't want to start up a group and then end up getting pregnant right away.  This "fear" still haunts me (especially since we are hoping to do IVF) but I have to stop living my life waiting for something that may never happen.  So, I've decided that if I do get pregnant then I'm sure God will bring someone else into the group that can lead it.  I'm leaving it in his hands!  I haven't advertised it yet as I'm still trying to figure some things out.  I've done up a Facebook page and will put some posters up around town and of course ask other churches to advertise in their bulletins.  It won't be an exclusively Christian group but will be held at the church.  I'm hoping people will come!!

I think that's about it for updates.  After my appointment in June I'll let you know what's happening!